I'm without a car again and have to get up at 6:30. I leave the house without saying a word to the kids, I don't like this at all. I feel like I should at least say good morning and have a good day. Oh well, it is what it is. I'm out the door and at the mall by 7:00.
Morning:
I talked to the mall manager this morning, and he said that he would talk to the other lady about taking some of that stuff down, but she is going to stay. He said they were supposed to be in another spot but because of wiring issues had to go in the food court less than 25 feet away from me. UGHHHH! All morning I've been mad, sad, with an overwhelming feeling of defeat. I wanna cry, this ain't right, it ain't fair. I wanna quit! Let them have the stinking mall, I wanna go home and get some sleep and be a momma again.
My feelings get worst and worst as the day progresses. No sales as of yet and it's making me upset. I have to pay rent and Sallie the rhinestone lady and purchase more product by tomorrow...I just can't do this. I'm stressed and I quit!
Afternoon:
Still no sales today and I'm feeling horrible. There are security, resturant people, and my neighbors all coming to let me know I have competition and what I need to do to beat them. I don't need them reminding me ever time I turn around I know they are here. I keep peeking at them to see how they are doing and every stinking time I see a customer over there I get mad. Huh, God I give up...I'm slapping the floor three times (like wrestlers do to signal surrender)...I've been taken down and I don't think I can get up.
I'm home and I had no sales today. I'm so emotionally worn I go straight to be with only a hi and good night to my kids.
Feeling Defeated!
Boss Momma
Monday, November 30, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Day 26 in the mall
My parents left this morning and I'm sad. I really loved them being here. I feel so bad, I did not prepare for them at all. Hardly any cooking or cleaning, but they graciously stayed in our dirty room without complaint. After I seen my parents off I went back to sleep. I slept until 11:30, I have to be at the mall at 12:00, but it was a much needed rest.
Today is very slow! I've made only 1 sale so far today. Those darn people with the rhinestones, they have people at their kiosk buying...those are supposed to be my customers! ERRRR with a super mad face. ;( I'm so mad, I wanna throw all of their shirts on the floor, and stump on them. I know, I know it ain't right to be thinking like this, but I don't know what else to think or do. I can't wait until tomorrow I will be talking to mall manangement. UGH, I thought I like competition, I change my mind I don't and yes, I wanna cheat! Don't know how, but I do.
As I'm sitting here I'm thinking God I really need your help. My mind is going to places that I know is not healthy. God please please help me think positive.
Today is over and only 1 dag on sale. I have a mad face on and feel like this is another lesson from God. God haven't I learned all the lessons I need to learn. I'm sick of learning, I need a break!!!!!!!!
At home and I have some time to spend with the kids. Brownie wants me to do her hair and I hesitantly agree. It's been what seems like months since I've talked to Brownie. She's been going out more with her "friend" and I still haven't had time to process that. Right now that's just too much for my mind, will have to start processing that after the New Year. We all hang out in the kitchen talking and laughing while I did Brownie's hair. It's a much needed mental break. I forgot in such a small amount of time, how much fun it is hanging out with my kids. They really are the best!
Finally done with Brownie's hair and off to bed we all go.
Love being a momma,
Boss Momma
Today is very slow! I've made only 1 sale so far today. Those darn people with the rhinestones, they have people at their kiosk buying...those are supposed to be my customers! ERRRR with a super mad face. ;( I'm so mad, I wanna throw all of their shirts on the floor, and stump on them. I know, I know it ain't right to be thinking like this, but I don't know what else to think or do. I can't wait until tomorrow I will be talking to mall manangement. UGH, I thought I like competition, I change my mind I don't and yes, I wanna cheat! Don't know how, but I do.
As I'm sitting here I'm thinking God I really need your help. My mind is going to places that I know is not healthy. God please please help me think positive.
Today is over and only 1 dag on sale. I have a mad face on and feel like this is another lesson from God. God haven't I learned all the lessons I need to learn. I'm sick of learning, I need a break!!!!!!!!
At home and I have some time to spend with the kids. Brownie wants me to do her hair and I hesitantly agree. It's been what seems like months since I've talked to Brownie. She's been going out more with her "friend" and I still haven't had time to process that. Right now that's just too much for my mind, will have to start processing that after the New Year. We all hang out in the kitchen talking and laughing while I did Brownie's hair. It's a much needed mental break. I forgot in such a small amount of time, how much fun it is hanging out with my kids. They really are the best!
Finally done with Brownie's hair and off to bed we all go.
Love being a momma,
Boss Momma
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Day 25 in the mall
It's Saturday and although I did sleep, I don't feel well rested. I still feel sore from the day before. I can't believe I was up from 4:30 am until 10:30 pm yesterday. You know there is a thin line between crazy and entrepreneurism and I'm am walking that line. I'm so glad that both my mom and Shelly was there to help.
Morning:
Morning sales are consistant and it's at a slower pace then yesterday. I want more more more, but I'm so tired I don't think I can handle more more more. My mom has been a great help today. I don't have to tell her much she just kinda jumps in and helps everywhere. I'm trying hard to make sure she is not worn out, but the mere fact that she's here all day is draining.
Afternoon:
Sales are still coming in, Lord knows we need it. Today is my second highest in sales so far, yesterday being the highest.
Everytime I have a dead spot, I think about the lady that just opened her kiosk yesterday. I'm still upset about that. She has this huge flea market looking stuff all around her kiosk...I guess normal people would call it grid wall, but it looks a hot mess. I think I'm going to go and talk to management first thing Monday morning. They told me nothing other than my table. So if nothing else to have her take down the montrosity of stuff.
It's closing time and I'm so ready to go! We've done well this weekend and I'm looking forward to next weekend. I hope the kids are in bed or settled down, because I don't think I could even talk to them tonight. I feel like a stinky horrible momma. I'm tired and my body is shutting down on me. Lord please give me strength...
Mad, Happy and Exhausted...
Boss Momma
Morning:
Morning sales are consistant and it's at a slower pace then yesterday. I want more more more, but I'm so tired I don't think I can handle more more more. My mom has been a great help today. I don't have to tell her much she just kinda jumps in and helps everywhere. I'm trying hard to make sure she is not worn out, but the mere fact that she's here all day is draining.
Afternoon:
Sales are still coming in, Lord knows we need it. Today is my second highest in sales so far, yesterday being the highest.
Everytime I have a dead spot, I think about the lady that just opened her kiosk yesterday. I'm still upset about that. She has this huge flea market looking stuff all around her kiosk...I guess normal people would call it grid wall, but it looks a hot mess. I think I'm going to go and talk to management first thing Monday morning. They told me nothing other than my table. So if nothing else to have her take down the montrosity of stuff.
It's closing time and I'm so ready to go! We've done well this weekend and I'm looking forward to next weekend. I hope the kids are in bed or settled down, because I don't think I could even talk to them tonight. I feel like a stinky horrible momma. I'm tired and my body is shutting down on me. Lord please give me strength...
Mad, Happy and Exhausted...
Boss Momma
Friday, November 27, 2009
Day 24 at the mall
This is too early for any human being to be getting up. My mom is up with me, so it makes it a bit easier. She is a trooper I don't know many people I'd get up this early for.
We get to the mall around 5:00 and guess what I see when I walk in...A darn kiosk selling rhinestones tshirts. That place must of set up last night. I am furious, I'm mad and in complete shock. Oh my...I take a deep breath and head to my kiosk with a quiet sinking feeling. We started off great. There's not as many people as I thought it would be. I'm thinking people would be waiting in line to rip the doors down...Not!
It's halfway through the day and I feel like I've been hit by a truck. I'm exhausted and haven't had anything to eat, I'm trying pushing myself to make it through the rest of the day. Whew!
It's almost the end of the day. I keep thinking about the other rhinestone t-shirt place. My first emotions were shock, now I'm in the "I'M GOING TO KICK THEIR BUTTS" mood! I'm going to get everything thing they've got but better. I'm forcing myself to think like Bill Gates would think. He would just buy them out, but I can't. :( I'm going to just have to beat them at their own game...I think.
The day is finally over and I've done great as far as sells go. I'm so tired I can't even feel excited. It's 10:00 and I have to get up and do this all over again. How in the world am I going to make it for the rest of the year. Ugh....
Kids are happy to see me, but all I can say is hi and goodnight. No spending time together tonight. Off to bed I go...without sleeping pills.
Black Friday high...
Boss Momma
We get to the mall around 5:00 and guess what I see when I walk in...A darn kiosk selling rhinestones tshirts. That place must of set up last night. I am furious, I'm mad and in complete shock. Oh my...I take a deep breath and head to my kiosk with a quiet sinking feeling. We started off great. There's not as many people as I thought it would be. I'm thinking people would be waiting in line to rip the doors down...Not!
It's halfway through the day and I feel like I've been hit by a truck. I'm exhausted and haven't had anything to eat, I'm trying pushing myself to make it through the rest of the day. Whew!
It's almost the end of the day. I keep thinking about the other rhinestone t-shirt place. My first emotions were shock, now I'm in the "I'M GOING TO KICK THEIR BUTTS" mood! I'm going to get everything thing they've got but better. I'm forcing myself to think like Bill Gates would think. He would just buy them out, but I can't. :( I'm going to just have to beat them at their own game...I think.
The day is finally over and I've done great as far as sells go. I'm so tired I can't even feel excited. It's 10:00 and I have to get up and do this all over again. How in the world am I going to make it for the rest of the year. Ugh....
Kids are happy to see me, but all I can say is hi and goodnight. No spending time together tonight. Off to bed I go...without sleeping pills.
Black Friday high...
Boss Momma
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Day 23 at the mall
It's Thanksgiving and I'm Thankful! I finally have a day off and I plan to enjoy it!
It's 11:30 and I've just got home from the store. Big O bought a smoked turkey so all I had to get were the sides. It was strange being in the grocery store, I hadn't been shopping in over a month now. Yes, the kids have been eating. I'm dreading this cooking thing, but oh well. Off I go.
This is surely not the traditional Thanksgiving we usually have. My mom did decide to pitch in and help with dinner. With her and the girls help and after some talking and dancing breaks dinner is done. We were all so relaxed that we didn't even wanna eat. After a little come on and eat yells we gathered to eat.
Brownie's "Friend" came over to meet the family. Poppie (my dad) promised to behave himself. After formal greetings we a few more guest show up we decided to play some games. Apples to Apples was a fun game that allowed up all to play. After an hour or so of play Big O won. After that Lia Pooh wanted to continue the tradition of hide and go seek in the dark. So we cut off all the lights and I was picked as the first seeker. With 9 people playing hide go seek it should be easy to catch at least one of these rascals. I counted to 40 with some play on the numbers and off to find my victims, I mean my hiders. What do you know Brownie's "Friend" (whom I think was too scared to run around our house) was caught by me and was the next seeker. I played a few more games and then I had to get to bed my big day was quickly approaching.
Thankful...
Boss Momma
It's 11:30 and I've just got home from the store. Big O bought a smoked turkey so all I had to get were the sides. It was strange being in the grocery store, I hadn't been shopping in over a month now. Yes, the kids have been eating. I'm dreading this cooking thing, but oh well. Off I go.
This is surely not the traditional Thanksgiving we usually have. My mom did decide to pitch in and help with dinner. With her and the girls help and after some talking and dancing breaks dinner is done. We were all so relaxed that we didn't even wanna eat. After a little come on and eat yells we gathered to eat.
Brownie's "Friend" came over to meet the family. Poppie (my dad) promised to behave himself. After formal greetings we a few more guest show up we decided to play some games. Apples to Apples was a fun game that allowed up all to play. After an hour or so of play Big O won. After that Lia Pooh wanted to continue the tradition of hide and go seek in the dark. So we cut off all the lights and I was picked as the first seeker. With 9 people playing hide go seek it should be easy to catch at least one of these rascals. I counted to 40 with some play on the numbers and off to find my victims, I mean my hiders. What do you know Brownie's "Friend" (whom I think was too scared to run around our house) was caught by me and was the next seeker. I played a few more games and then I had to get to bed my big day was quickly approaching.
Thankful...
Boss Momma
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Day 22 in the mall
I'm so glad it's Wednesday. My parents are coming and I get a break tomorrow. The first break I've gotten in almost a month. This 72 hour work week is catching up with me and I'm constantly exhausted.
Morning:
The sales this morning was better than expected for a Wednesday. There are a lot of people here...now that I think about it, school is out and there are a lot of people off work. My parents called they are here and on their way to the mall with the kids. Yippe! I'm so excited, can't wait to see them.
Evening:
Sales have slacked off this evening, but I don't care cause my parents are here and I get to spend some time chatting with them. They seem to be so proud of me, and I'm just as proud that they are proud...does that make sense?
Closing time and that means I have to get started cooking. Did I mention that I strongly dislike cooking. I think it's a waste of good time. My mom is not a cooker either, and she already let me know that I'm on my own with cooking. Ugh...I really am not looking forward to this.
I'm home and the I've decided I'm not going to the grocery store tonight. I will wait until the morning. The kids are disappointed, the little girls wanna help cook, and Brownie just wants to eat. Bud, well all he wants to do is play. They don't seem understand that I'm tired, exhausted, and excited all at the same time and I just don't want to leave the house at all.
Our normal nightly routine is different tonight. We all talk about what's been going on and my parents catch up on some quality time with the kids. Ahhh, life is good! Looking forward to having one day of being just momma and dropping that boss title.
It's Momma Time!
Boss Momma
Morning:
The sales this morning was better than expected for a Wednesday. There are a lot of people here...now that I think about it, school is out and there are a lot of people off work. My parents called they are here and on their way to the mall with the kids. Yippe! I'm so excited, can't wait to see them.
Evening:
Sales have slacked off this evening, but I don't care cause my parents are here and I get to spend some time chatting with them. They seem to be so proud of me, and I'm just as proud that they are proud...does that make sense?
Closing time and that means I have to get started cooking. Did I mention that I strongly dislike cooking. I think it's a waste of good time. My mom is not a cooker either, and she already let me know that I'm on my own with cooking. Ugh...I really am not looking forward to this.
I'm home and the I've decided I'm not going to the grocery store tonight. I will wait until the morning. The kids are disappointed, the little girls wanna help cook, and Brownie just wants to eat. Bud, well all he wants to do is play. They don't seem understand that I'm tired, exhausted, and excited all at the same time and I just don't want to leave the house at all.
Our normal nightly routine is different tonight. We all talk about what's been going on and my parents catch up on some quality time with the kids. Ahhh, life is good! Looking forward to having one day of being just momma and dropping that boss title.
It's Momma Time!
Boss Momma
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Day 21 in the mall
I'm up again shipping out packages for Homeschool Boutique. I was excited when I checked my email because I got enough orders over night to get the rest of my product. I'm not gonna say I can't believe it because I can believe it. It's just amazing to see God work right before your eyes. I'm just speechless and truly thankful. Thank you God!!!!!!! Okay, off to order product!
I've placed my orders and although pretty much last minute I should get them in by tomorrow. Sallie, the rhinestone lady called my rhinestones that I was expecting today won't be here until Monday. Errrr with a mad face.... I NEED THOSE STONES!
Things are a bit hectic but I'm more excited than ever now. I just know God is going to work this out for His good, and my gain. I've learned more in the last 25 days than I've learned in the last three years. I'm happy about the growth, but it's really been uncomfortable, but that is totally my gain...anything else is just icing on the cake.
The kids got a lot of work done yesterday, but it's still a ton of stuff to do. I leave them with another list and out the door I go.
Our morning sales have been slow, but it has helped me get a lot of needed stuff done and ready for this weekend. I'm sooo sooo excited and it seems to be bubbling inside of me. I've had a lot of great feedback and the anticipation of this weekend is eating inside of me. I can barely sleep, eat or think about anything else.
I get my bags and every thing displayed just how I want it (really cute will post pictures later) and it seems to be working because I've gotten more sales of bags than I've ever had.
Today has turned out to be a really great day. Sales are really picking up.
The kids are waiting in my room and as soon as I walk in Lia Pooh says how many customers did we have today? How much money did you make? When are we gonna get paid? Do you have a lot of cash or a lot of credit cards? I answer all her questions and we spend the rest of the evening talking about BLACK FRIDAY. I just can't wait.
Black Friday here we come...
Boss Momma
I've placed my orders and although pretty much last minute I should get them in by tomorrow. Sallie, the rhinestone lady called my rhinestones that I was expecting today won't be here until Monday. Errrr with a mad face.... I NEED THOSE STONES!
Things are a bit hectic but I'm more excited than ever now. I just know God is going to work this out for His good, and my gain. I've learned more in the last 25 days than I've learned in the last three years. I'm happy about the growth, but it's really been uncomfortable, but that is totally my gain...anything else is just icing on the cake.
The kids got a lot of work done yesterday, but it's still a ton of stuff to do. I leave them with another list and out the door I go.
Our morning sales have been slow, but it has helped me get a lot of needed stuff done and ready for this weekend. I'm sooo sooo excited and it seems to be bubbling inside of me. I've had a lot of great feedback and the anticipation of this weekend is eating inside of me. I can barely sleep, eat or think about anything else.
I get my bags and every thing displayed just how I want it (really cute will post pictures later) and it seems to be working because I've gotten more sales of bags than I've ever had.
Today has turned out to be a really great day. Sales are really picking up.
The kids are waiting in my room and as soon as I walk in Lia Pooh says how many customers did we have today? How much money did you make? When are we gonna get paid? Do you have a lot of cash or a lot of credit cards? I answer all her questions and we spend the rest of the evening talking about BLACK FRIDAY. I just can't wait.
Black Friday here we come...
Boss Momma
Monday, November 23, 2009
Day 20 in the mall
I'm tired and I didn't wanna get up this morning. I got home around 3:00 am this morning and then couldn't sleep. I was able to get some Bible reading time in, but fell asleep around 3:45. I'm up at 8:00 cause I gotta get orders shipped out. Since I haven't been working on Homeschool Boutique everyday, I forget about it until I get orders. I'm gonna have to find a way to work both of these businesses.
Morning:
This morning has flown by. I've had quite a few sales and it's causing me to look forward to this weekend. I'm excited about the growth I see week over week. Kelly was right and all I have to do is just stand in there.
Afternoon:
Now, I've been calculating what I need for this weekend and I really need about $500.00 more dollars to get all the product I need. I don't have it, but Lord I need it and I'm trusting you. Oh, and Lord I need it no later than tomorrow morning...
The kids are at home and I have to do Mz. Chocolate's hair. So, I start on my hour or so long venture, knowing if I braid it now I won't have to do it later. The kids and I get some talk time, school time, and chill time in while I'm braiding. I'm soo tired from last night I can't stand it. After braiding her hair, the girls hop in the tub and I fall asleep.
I wake up to noise and notice that it's an hour and a half later and the girls are still in the tub...Oh goodness. I get the girls out the tub and in the bed. Okay, now I can go back to sleep.
Waiting on Him...
Boss Momma
Morning:
This morning has flown by. I've had quite a few sales and it's causing me to look forward to this weekend. I'm excited about the growth I see week over week. Kelly was right and all I have to do is just stand in there.
Afternoon:
Now, I've been calculating what I need for this weekend and I really need about $500.00 more dollars to get all the product I need. I don't have it, but Lord I need it and I'm trusting you. Oh, and Lord I need it no later than tomorrow morning...
The kids are at home and I have to do Mz. Chocolate's hair. So, I start on my hour or so long venture, knowing if I braid it now I won't have to do it later. The kids and I get some talk time, school time, and chill time in while I'm braiding. I'm soo tired from last night I can't stand it. After braiding her hair, the girls hop in the tub and I fall asleep.
I wake up to noise and notice that it's an hour and a half later and the girls are still in the tub...Oh goodness. I get the girls out the tub and in the bed. Okay, now I can go back to sleep.
Waiting on Him...
Boss Momma
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Day 19 in the mall
This morning I have to pick up the older kids from a youth retreat. They've been asking for the last month if they could go and it wasn't until Friday, the day of the retreat that we agreed to let them go. It's been so much going on that I just had no idea how they would get there and we did not have the extra money.
Well, our relentless youth pastors arranged for pick up of the kids, and the money part was well, taken care of. My kids were really excited and was packed and ready within 1/2 hour.
Morning:
The morning went really slow, but it's Sunday and I expect that. I finally received my bag order and I'm excited.
Afternoon:
We ended up doing pretty well today. I have to work tonight and I'm not happy with that. I could kick myself in the butt for scheduling myself to work. I'm pooped and I wanna go to sleep.
I'm finally home and the kids are wanting to eat. Big O and I go grab some food for us to eat and we start back the trend of us all chatting in our room on our bed. I forget I have work in a few hours so I rush Big O and the kids out so I can get an hour or so of sleep. Don't know what the heck I was thinking...
Getting my hustle on.
Boss Momma
Well, our relentless youth pastors arranged for pick up of the kids, and the money part was well, taken care of. My kids were really excited and was packed and ready within 1/2 hour.
Morning:
The morning went really slow, but it's Sunday and I expect that. I finally received my bag order and I'm excited.
Afternoon:
We ended up doing pretty well today. I have to work tonight and I'm not happy with that. I could kick myself in the butt for scheduling myself to work. I'm pooped and I wanna go to sleep.
I'm finally home and the kids are wanting to eat. Big O and I go grab some food for us to eat and we start back the trend of us all chatting in our room on our bed. I forget I have work in a few hours so I rush Big O and the kids out so I can get an hour or so of sleep. Don't know what the heck I was thinking...
Getting my hustle on.
Boss Momma
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Day 18 in the mall
Today, is gonna be a great day! I can just feel it.
Morning:
Shelly is here and I've already trained her. We've been kicking butt today. I like having two people here, while I do shirts she can greet customers and take orders. It feels like I just doubled myself if that makes any sense.
Afternoon:
Today has been the best day so far. I'm looking forward to the season progressing. I've had a great day, but I'm a bit worn out. I'm excited about what the future will hold.
Anxiously Awaiting...
Boss Momma
Morning:
Shelly is here and I've already trained her. We've been kicking butt today. I like having two people here, while I do shirts she can greet customers and take orders. It feels like I just doubled myself if that makes any sense.
Afternoon:
Today has been the best day so far. I'm looking forward to the season progressing. I've had a great day, but I'm a bit worn out. I'm excited about what the future will hold.
Anxiously Awaiting...
Boss Momma
Friday, November 20, 2009
Day 17 in the mall
It's Friday! Up again at the crack of dawn. I've decided not to complain anymore about the time I have to get up. Big O says that's a waste of a complaint. He tells me to save that complaint on something worth complaining about. As much as I wanna complain about not complaining, I agree with him.
Morning:
I get a call from Kelly around 8:00 this morning, and she just had me tickled. She is telling me about a bozo that is at a local show with her selling the same thing she's selling for about $4.50 cheaper. She is in an up roar. I can so sympathize with her because of the issue I had with the guy taking pictures. (I will tell you what happened with that later) I told you we were crazy, so we are thinking about diabolical ways to stop this bozo. All of which are either illegal, or not representing Christ...She decides to do what she does best and write, write letters to all involved and to some whoes not.
I've had a few sales today and as usual time is passing slowly by.
Afternoon:
It's been a steady day as far as sales are concerned. I'm looking around and as people are passing my kiosk and guess who I see coming toward me...KELLY and her hubby who I will call Big Mack. I was so happy to see them. I haven't seen her in some weeks now, and I was just thrilled to see her. They came toting kids, a box full of stuff that I requested for her to bring on her next trip here and car keys. Yes, Boss Momma said car keys. She drove an hour away to bring me their second car. I squeeze her close and hold it for a second. I reach and give Big Mack a hug too. Kiss and greet the kids, I'm in friend heaven.
Just in time I'm thinking, I have an order I have to do. I've been calling Big O asking when will you be here I have a shipment I have to have. He doesn't know when he can be here...Ugh. After Kelly and Big Mack leaves, I get the keys and rush out of the mall to go get this package. On my way back I have two missed calls from Kelly and a text. Her text says, she's at my booth taking orders. I'm cracking up because I thought she came back saw that I wasn't there and was messing with me. I called her back and was surprised to find out she really was taking orders. I rush back to fulfill the orders and say my goodbyes again.
About the guy who was wanting to open a kiosk next to me selling rhinestones. Well, I talk to the mall manager and he says it's not going to happen. He is not going to allow that guy to set up that close to me. He did give him other options of places he could be in the mall. The mall manager said as of yet het hasn't received a signed contract for him or his business. Whooo Hooo!
I'm excited, I have a car I can drive! I feel like a bird, who has been granted permission to fly.
More sales, and the day is finally over. I closed today with less orders than I did last Friday, but I'm okay with that. I understand people are just not into Christmas right now. I know I'm not.
The mall is close and I don't have to find a way home. I was so excited I stopped at the grocery store. I haven't been to the store in over a month. Big O has been picking up stuff here and there as we need it.
I'm tired so I talk a little to the kids and Big O and hit the sack.
On the Road again,
Boss Momma
Morning:
I get a call from Kelly around 8:00 this morning, and she just had me tickled. She is telling me about a bozo that is at a local show with her selling the same thing she's selling for about $4.50 cheaper. She is in an up roar. I can so sympathize with her because of the issue I had with the guy taking pictures. (I will tell you what happened with that later) I told you we were crazy, so we are thinking about diabolical ways to stop this bozo. All of which are either illegal, or not representing Christ...She decides to do what she does best and write, write letters to all involved and to some whoes not.
I've had a few sales today and as usual time is passing slowly by.
Afternoon:
It's been a steady day as far as sales are concerned. I'm looking around and as people are passing my kiosk and guess who I see coming toward me...KELLY and her hubby who I will call Big Mack. I was so happy to see them. I haven't seen her in some weeks now, and I was just thrilled to see her. They came toting kids, a box full of stuff that I requested for her to bring on her next trip here and car keys. Yes, Boss Momma said car keys. She drove an hour away to bring me their second car. I squeeze her close and hold it for a second. I reach and give Big Mack a hug too. Kiss and greet the kids, I'm in friend heaven.
Just in time I'm thinking, I have an order I have to do. I've been calling Big O asking when will you be here I have a shipment I have to have. He doesn't know when he can be here...Ugh. After Kelly and Big Mack leaves, I get the keys and rush out of the mall to go get this package. On my way back I have two missed calls from Kelly and a text. Her text says, she's at my booth taking orders. I'm cracking up because I thought she came back saw that I wasn't there and was messing with me. I called her back and was surprised to find out she really was taking orders. I rush back to fulfill the orders and say my goodbyes again.
About the guy who was wanting to open a kiosk next to me selling rhinestones. Well, I talk to the mall manager and he says it's not going to happen. He is not going to allow that guy to set up that close to me. He did give him other options of places he could be in the mall. The mall manager said as of yet het hasn't received a signed contract for him or his business. Whooo Hooo!
I'm excited, I have a car I can drive! I feel like a bird, who has been granted permission to fly.
More sales, and the day is finally over. I closed today with less orders than I did last Friday, but I'm okay with that. I understand people are just not into Christmas right now. I know I'm not.
The mall is close and I don't have to find a way home. I was so excited I stopped at the grocery store. I haven't been to the store in over a month. Big O has been picking up stuff here and there as we need it.
I'm tired so I talk a little to the kids and Big O and hit the sack.
On the Road again,
Boss Momma
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Day 16 at the mall
Getting up at 6:15 everyday is really hard getting use to, but it does provide me with a way to work. Before I leave I kiss my sleeping kids head. I tell Bud I'm leaving and to have a good day.
Morning:
My morning sales are slow, but I do have some. I've had a lot of time to do some deep thinking. I'm not sad at all, but why do I keep crying. I've come to the conclusion that my crying represents loss of control over things. Sorta like a toddler throwing a tantrum because he/she can't have it's way. I think it's been so much going on that I need to remember to slow down enjoy each of these stages of business I go through.
I really am happy about all this! By my emotions you wouldn't be able to tell, but I am living my dream.
Afternoon:
A few more sales completed and it's about closing time. I receive a call from another dear friend, she calls often to check on things, I appreciate it. She is one of those friends that can see more in you than you see in yourself. She's in the process of starting her own business and I encourage her. I pray for her that she won't give up, because it gets hard and lonely sometimes. But to me the since of accomplishment is soooo worth it.
Finally home and the kids are all hyped up. They are all over the place. Our usual routine has now been dampered by kids who have been eating junk food and harsh playing. I have no idea how to get them settled down. Hum, Bath tub... I get them into the bath get a little talking time in and off to bed we go.
Dream in Motion,
Boss Momma
Morning:
My morning sales are slow, but I do have some. I've had a lot of time to do some deep thinking. I'm not sad at all, but why do I keep crying. I've come to the conclusion that my crying represents loss of control over things. Sorta like a toddler throwing a tantrum because he/she can't have it's way. I think it's been so much going on that I need to remember to slow down enjoy each of these stages of business I go through.
I really am happy about all this! By my emotions you wouldn't be able to tell, but I am living my dream.
Afternoon:
A few more sales completed and it's about closing time. I receive a call from another dear friend, she calls often to check on things, I appreciate it. She is one of those friends that can see more in you than you see in yourself. She's in the process of starting her own business and I encourage her. I pray for her that she won't give up, because it gets hard and lonely sometimes. But to me the since of accomplishment is soooo worth it.
Finally home and the kids are all hyped up. They are all over the place. Our usual routine has now been dampered by kids who have been eating junk food and harsh playing. I have no idea how to get them settled down. Hum, Bath tub... I get them into the bath get a little talking time in and off to bed we go.
Dream in Motion,
Boss Momma
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Day 15 at the mall
Today starts off much better than yesterday. Big O decides no more of that not having a ride to work in the morning. He's gonna take me to work. The only thing is, he leaves at 7:00 in the morning the mall doesn't open until 10:00. Grudgingly I get ready and go. At the mall at 7:15, I'm one of the only people here, but I'm here!
I had my first three sells within the first 1 1/2 of opening. I'm grateful! I have tons of stuff to do to get ready for holiday weekend, so I plan on cutting out all my letters, working on some way to get all my shirts to fit in this small space.
After a few hours of cutting and putting away product, I start rolling up tshirts and stacking them under the table. I laid some plastic down and order them by size. Wow, I'm able to put more than 50 of each size under there.
Afternoon:
I had a gentleman come over and ask some questions about how business was going. After a little converstion I went to sit down and he began snapping pictures. I tell him I'm uncomfortable with that. He tells me he's going to send them to his wife. He finally tells me he's wanting to open up a kiosk near mine selling you guessed it rhinestone t-shirts. ERRRRR! Not with a smiling face.... He only wants to be in here on the weekend, he says he doesn't have time to fool with the Monday- Thursday crowd. I prayed and this is how it went. Lord, I wish he and his family all the best! I pray you bless his business and all that his hand touches...but if they get a spot next to me I pray that people skip their kiosk and come to mine, I pray that I have favor with you and your people, I pray that they don't make a dime while next to me, and I ask all these things in YOUR NAME JESUS! AMEN.
I've sold 4 more shirts and the day is just about over. I began cleaning up my area, and this tired chick is headed for home.
The kids are on a bowling league and I have a precious friend who has volunteered to pick them up every Wenesday and drop them off. That was a huge blessing for me! The kids are in my room again tonight and the first thing they tell me about is their bowling. Mz. Chocolate bowled a 101. Wow, she has finally made it over the 100 mark...and that's without bumpers. Lia Pooh, that's another story... she just likes to have fun. Bud, is pretty good. He's been averaging about 180.
No school work tonight I'm too tired. Off to bed we go. I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
Satan I can not be shaken!
Boss Momma
I had my first three sells within the first 1 1/2 of opening. I'm grateful! I have tons of stuff to do to get ready for holiday weekend, so I plan on cutting out all my letters, working on some way to get all my shirts to fit in this small space.
After a few hours of cutting and putting away product, I start rolling up tshirts and stacking them under the table. I laid some plastic down and order them by size. Wow, I'm able to put more than 50 of each size under there.
Afternoon:
I had a gentleman come over and ask some questions about how business was going. After a little converstion I went to sit down and he began snapping pictures. I tell him I'm uncomfortable with that. He tells me he's going to send them to his wife. He finally tells me he's wanting to open up a kiosk near mine selling you guessed it rhinestone t-shirts. ERRRRR! Not with a smiling face.... He only wants to be in here on the weekend, he says he doesn't have time to fool with the Monday- Thursday crowd. I prayed and this is how it went. Lord, I wish he and his family all the best! I pray you bless his business and all that his hand touches...but if they get a spot next to me I pray that people skip their kiosk and come to mine, I pray that I have favor with you and your people, I pray that they don't make a dime while next to me, and I ask all these things in YOUR NAME JESUS! AMEN.
I've sold 4 more shirts and the day is just about over. I began cleaning up my area, and this tired chick is headed for home.
The kids are on a bowling league and I have a precious friend who has volunteered to pick them up every Wenesday and drop them off. That was a huge blessing for me! The kids are in my room again tonight and the first thing they tell me about is their bowling. Mz. Chocolate bowled a 101. Wow, she has finally made it over the 100 mark...and that's without bumpers. Lia Pooh, that's another story... she just likes to have fun. Bud, is pretty good. He's been averaging about 180.
No school work tonight I'm too tired. Off to bed we go. I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
Satan I can not be shaken!
Boss Momma
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Day 14 in the mall
I'm up again at the crack of dawn, did I ever mention that I'm not a morning person, at all.
Morning:
My first thing to do this morning is to ship out packages from my Homeschool Boutique and Ebay websites. Homeschool Boutique is a trendy online apparel store I own and Ebay is a lot of different stuff I sell.
All done with that now I'm off again to put in my 11 hours of work. Only problem is my ride hasn't shown up yet. Yikes, I'm calling every other person I can think of, no one is answering. I'm thinking they see it's my number and know I need a ride and just don't wanna take me. (I'm sure this is just me) Tears just start welding up in my eyes. I'm supposed to be at the mall at 10:00 it's now 10:03. I get all my things together and start walking to the mall. It so cold I can't do it. Now tears are coming by the boat load. I hate being so emotional. I usually never am...I don't know what my problem is. After making a few more calls I find one person who hesitantly comes and drop me off.
I arrived at 10:28 and prayed the mall hadn't issued a fine. Whew, no fine... Cleaned my face and got ready to start my day at the mall.
Afternoon:
No shirt sells today, but it's Tuesday and that's expected. Shelly came by today (the lady I hired to work with me) we talked and talked and talked. You know how sometimes you just know people are supposed to be in your life at certain times? This is one of those times you just know. Call it a gut feeling, I'm not sure...she is meant to be here! She is a faith builder which I need and I'm a dreamer something that she needs.
Home and the kids are in my room waiting. We do our nightly dicussions, do what little bit of school work we can and off to bed we all go.
In God I trust,
Boss Momma
Morning:
My first thing to do this morning is to ship out packages from my Homeschool Boutique and Ebay websites. Homeschool Boutique is a trendy online apparel store I own and Ebay is a lot of different stuff I sell.
All done with that now I'm off again to put in my 11 hours of work. Only problem is my ride hasn't shown up yet. Yikes, I'm calling every other person I can think of, no one is answering. I'm thinking they see it's my number and know I need a ride and just don't wanna take me. (I'm sure this is just me) Tears just start welding up in my eyes. I'm supposed to be at the mall at 10:00 it's now 10:03. I get all my things together and start walking to the mall. It so cold I can't do it. Now tears are coming by the boat load. I hate being so emotional. I usually never am...I don't know what my problem is. After making a few more calls I find one person who hesitantly comes and drop me off.
I arrived at 10:28 and prayed the mall hadn't issued a fine. Whew, no fine... Cleaned my face and got ready to start my day at the mall.
Afternoon:
No shirt sells today, but it's Tuesday and that's expected. Shelly came by today (the lady I hired to work with me) we talked and talked and talked. You know how sometimes you just know people are supposed to be in your life at certain times? This is one of those times you just know. Call it a gut feeling, I'm not sure...she is meant to be here! She is a faith builder which I need and I'm a dreamer something that she needs.
Home and the kids are in my room waiting. We do our nightly dicussions, do what little bit of school work we can and off to bed we all go.
In God I trust,
Boss Momma
Monday, November 16, 2009
Day 13 at the mall
I'm up again at the crack of dawn while the kids are still sleep I get some cleaning done, make breakfast and out the house I go. I don't know why it seems easier to leave while their sleep, but it does. I'm sure for them on the other hand they wake up and no momma is there. UGH...
I hitched a ride to the mall from a friend. As bad as this is, I know we will get through it. I just have this reoccuring thought...Why do I have a kiosk in the mall and ain't got no money???? Who does this, either I have strong faith, or I'm just crazy. Hopefully I will be able to answer that question in about 7 weeks.
I was thinking about this whole ordeal, and you know I just came up with this bright idea at the end of September and at that time had no clue what I was going to sell. I knew it would be in the t-shirt field because that's what I do, in a short amount of time I was able to come up with the entire concept. I called the mall to get pricing it was too expensive, so I ask about smaller spaces and the lady was able to give me a smaller space for less then half of the first quoted price. I then filled out my application, got an insurance policy and I submitted it. Upon approval I signed a lease....all without a dime.
I am a risk-taker and I don't mind loosing, but it's not gonna be because I didn't try my hardest or do my best. You remember the parable of the Talents in the Bible? Well, it's my favorite and I want to share it with you:
The parable tells of a master who was leaving his home to travel, and before going gave his three servants different amounts of money. On returning from his travels, the master asked his servants for an account of the money given to them. The first servant reported that he was given five talents, and he had made five talents more. The master praised the servant as being good and faithful, gave him more responsibility because of his faithfulness, and invited the servant to be joyful together with him.
The second servant said that he had received two talents, and he had made two talents more. The master praised this servant in the same way as being good and faithful, giving him more responsibility and inviting the servant to be joyful together with him.
The last servant who had received one talent reported that knowing his master was a hard man, he buried his talent in the ground for safekeeping, and therefore returned the original amount to his master. The master called him a wicked and lazy servant, saying that he should have placed the money in the bank to generate interest. The master commanded that the one talent be taken away from that servant, and given to the servant with ten talents, because everyone that has much will be given more, and whoever that has a little, even the little that he has will be taken away.
I pray that each of you reading this will be encouraged to use your gifts and talents. Began where you are!
With all of that said I've only sold 2 shirts today. It's okay, because I'm learning that this is a faith walk for me. I've never been on a faith walk before, but God wanted me to see this side of his grace. I'm learning that you don't always have to see where your foot will land before you pick it up, you just have to trust that when you put it down He's got a place for it to land.
Walking by Faith,
Boss Momma
I hitched a ride to the mall from a friend. As bad as this is, I know we will get through it. I just have this reoccuring thought...Why do I have a kiosk in the mall and ain't got no money???? Who does this, either I have strong faith, or I'm just crazy. Hopefully I will be able to answer that question in about 7 weeks.
I was thinking about this whole ordeal, and you know I just came up with this bright idea at the end of September and at that time had no clue what I was going to sell. I knew it would be in the t-shirt field because that's what I do, in a short amount of time I was able to come up with the entire concept. I called the mall to get pricing it was too expensive, so I ask about smaller spaces and the lady was able to give me a smaller space for less then half of the first quoted price. I then filled out my application, got an insurance policy and I submitted it. Upon approval I signed a lease....all without a dime.
I am a risk-taker and I don't mind loosing, but it's not gonna be because I didn't try my hardest or do my best. You remember the parable of the Talents in the Bible? Well, it's my favorite and I want to share it with you:
The parable tells of a master who was leaving his home to travel, and before going gave his three servants different amounts of money. On returning from his travels, the master asked his servants for an account of the money given to them. The first servant reported that he was given five talents, and he had made five talents more. The master praised the servant as being good and faithful, gave him more responsibility because of his faithfulness, and invited the servant to be joyful together with him.
The second servant said that he had received two talents, and he had made two talents more. The master praised this servant in the same way as being good and faithful, giving him more responsibility and inviting the servant to be joyful together with him.
The last servant who had received one talent reported that knowing his master was a hard man, he buried his talent in the ground for safekeeping, and therefore returned the original amount to his master. The master called him a wicked and lazy servant, saying that he should have placed the money in the bank to generate interest. The master commanded that the one talent be taken away from that servant, and given to the servant with ten talents, because everyone that has much will be given more, and whoever that has a little, even the little that he has will be taken away.
I pray that each of you reading this will be encouraged to use your gifts and talents. Began where you are!
With all of that said I've only sold 2 shirts today. It's okay, because I'm learning that this is a faith walk for me. I've never been on a faith walk before, but God wanted me to see this side of his grace. I'm learning that you don't always have to see where your foot will land before you pick it up, you just have to trust that when you put it down He's got a place for it to land.
Walking by Faith,
Boss Momma
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Day 12 in the mall
Morning:
It's been slow this morning. No where like it was yesterday. Today, I'm kinda enjoying watching people as they walk by. I'm starting to get use to this mall life. I'm not sure if that's good or not.
Afternoon:
I have a few orders that I've done, and I'm happy. Randi J and the girls are here. I'm happy to see them. I send the girls to get me a 3 berry smoothie with whipped cream from Dairy Queen and Randi and I talk about what's been going on. I fill her in on all the details and she smiles and says gurl it's gonna come. I love Randi J for some reason I feel so comfortable with her. She is a real tell it like it is in a sweet way type of chick. She is a walking testiment of God's favor, grace, and love. Everytime I see her I just know that God can, whatever it is, He can. Randi J thanks girl your visits and calls keep going.
I'm so thankful that this is a short day. I'm tired really tired. I'm working 72 a week and I'm starting to feel it.
Evening:
Awe, finally home give the kids and Big O kisses and hugs and yes this bootleg momma hits the sack a 7:00 pm.
Tired,
Boss Momma
It's been slow this morning. No where like it was yesterday. Today, I'm kinda enjoying watching people as they walk by. I'm starting to get use to this mall life. I'm not sure if that's good or not.
Afternoon:
I have a few orders that I've done, and I'm happy. Randi J and the girls are here. I'm happy to see them. I send the girls to get me a 3 berry smoothie with whipped cream from Dairy Queen and Randi and I talk about what's been going on. I fill her in on all the details and she smiles and says gurl it's gonna come. I love Randi J for some reason I feel so comfortable with her. She is a real tell it like it is in a sweet way type of chick. She is a walking testiment of God's favor, grace, and love. Everytime I see her I just know that God can, whatever it is, He can. Randi J thanks girl your visits and calls keep going.
I'm so thankful that this is a short day. I'm tired really tired. I'm working 72 a week and I'm starting to feel it.
Evening:
Awe, finally home give the kids and Big O kisses and hugs and yes this bootleg momma hits the sack a 7:00 pm.
Tired,
Boss Momma
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Day 11 at the mall
Morning:
There are a lot of people here. In the back of my mind I hope some are here to purchase from me. I hear that today should be better than last week, and each weekend to come will be better than before. I'm so looking forward to it.
So far I've sold 6 shirts, looks like today is a lot better than last Saturday. Kelly, I have to say you're right. After shooting her a quick text message, I have a visitor. Let me give you a little background on this vistor before I tell you who she is. I have a friend who sent me a text message last Sunday or Monday. It was a very encouraging text and at the end she said if I was looking to hire someone her sister had been laid off and is need of a job, she has a degree in marketing. Hummmm, you all know I'm broke right. Scared and broke, I agree to to meet with the sister who I will call Shelly.
Shelly and I get to talking and boy do we hit it off. I tell her that I'm in business for myself because I think spending time with family is important. ( Don't say a work I know I'm gone all day, it's only for a short period of time) So I tell her that family is first, friendship is second, and business comes next. It is important to me, a lesson well taught by Kelly, to keep good relationships. I love Shelly's sister and after meeting Shelly, I can tell I was going to love her just as much. I don't want business to come between us. Family is also important and comes before any of this. Business is my passion and I also wanted her to know that too. After talking for an hour we agreed that she would start Monday the 23rd of November. I'm officially Boss Momma!
Afternoon:
I had 7 more sales by the end of the night and I'm tired. I've been on my feet most of the day and my feet are screaming. I'm going home and hit the sack.
Boss Momma for real!
There are a lot of people here. In the back of my mind I hope some are here to purchase from me. I hear that today should be better than last week, and each weekend to come will be better than before. I'm so looking forward to it.
So far I've sold 6 shirts, looks like today is a lot better than last Saturday. Kelly, I have to say you're right. After shooting her a quick text message, I have a visitor. Let me give you a little background on this vistor before I tell you who she is. I have a friend who sent me a text message last Sunday or Monday. It was a very encouraging text and at the end she said if I was looking to hire someone her sister had been laid off and is need of a job, she has a degree in marketing. Hummmm, you all know I'm broke right. Scared and broke, I agree to to meet with the sister who I will call Shelly.
Shelly and I get to talking and boy do we hit it off. I tell her that I'm in business for myself because I think spending time with family is important. ( Don't say a work I know I'm gone all day, it's only for a short period of time) So I tell her that family is first, friendship is second, and business comes next. It is important to me, a lesson well taught by Kelly, to keep good relationships. I love Shelly's sister and after meeting Shelly, I can tell I was going to love her just as much. I don't want business to come between us. Family is also important and comes before any of this. Business is my passion and I also wanted her to know that too. After talking for an hour we agreed that she would start Monday the 23rd of November. I'm officially Boss Momma!
Afternoon:
I had 7 more sales by the end of the night and I'm tired. I've been on my feet most of the day and my feet are screaming. I'm going home and hit the sack.
Boss Momma for real!
Friday, November 13, 2009
Day 10 at the mall
I woke up early this morning. I wanted to get some schooling, breakfast, and a little cleaning in before I took off to the mall. I'm still carless and begging/ borrowing cars from people we know. This morning I don't even wanna call another person. I know many of you may say just rent a car...well renting a car only works if you have the money to do so. All the money I'm making right now has to go back into the business to purchase more product.
Morning:
This morning I had about 4 orders and that's great. A 400% turn around from last Friday. When it comes to business you have to have patience, something I'm lacking. This is teaching me patience, faith, and how to smile while learning it all. So many times I wanted to cry and give up, but had to put that all behind me and smile once a customer walked up. Boy does God know how to teach us stuff.
Afternoon:
A few more sales this afternoon, I'm so thankful for each and everyone of them. I find myself thanking people more than I should probably. Talk to Kelly again, and she told me this weekend should be better than last weekend. So far she is right.
Home finally. I love coming home. I wonder if the kids will ever stop running to see me when I come in? I hope not because that is a great feeling. I give them all a smile and somehow they seem to just know that today was a better day. Off to do our now nightly routine.
Big O was gone when I came in so when he got home he just smiled and ask how my day was, I replied fine and yours. He looked at me and said Babe I'm sooo proud of you and whether you loose money, break even, or make money I will still be just as proud. I'm not sure if he knew that those words were like medicine to my worried mind. It made me wanna work harder, longer, and do what it takes to make this work. His words give me strength, and when I seem to loose all mine, he graciously gives me his.
Strength to continue,
Boss Momma
Morning:
This morning I had about 4 orders and that's great. A 400% turn around from last Friday. When it comes to business you have to have patience, something I'm lacking. This is teaching me patience, faith, and how to smile while learning it all. So many times I wanted to cry and give up, but had to put that all behind me and smile once a customer walked up. Boy does God know how to teach us stuff.
Afternoon:
A few more sales this afternoon, I'm so thankful for each and everyone of them. I find myself thanking people more than I should probably. Talk to Kelly again, and she told me this weekend should be better than last weekend. So far she is right.
Home finally. I love coming home. I wonder if the kids will ever stop running to see me when I come in? I hope not because that is a great feeling. I give them all a smile and somehow they seem to just know that today was a better day. Off to do our now nightly routine.
Big O was gone when I came in so when he got home he just smiled and ask how my day was, I replied fine and yours. He looked at me and said Babe I'm sooo proud of you and whether you loose money, break even, or make money I will still be just as proud. I'm not sure if he knew that those words were like medicine to my worried mind. It made me wanna work harder, longer, and do what it takes to make this work. His words give me strength, and when I seem to loose all mine, he graciously gives me his.
Strength to continue,
Boss Momma
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Day 9 at the mall
This morning seemed to rush by. The kids were just getting up as I left so I just said my goodbyes and left. Rushing out like that makes me fell like a horrible mom- can't even cook breakfast for the kiddos. I talk to my mom this morning and it was refreshing. I'm a grown up and I still look and want my parents approval. I want to please them and make them happy. Her words of encouragement warms my soul.
I've been blessed by the amount of calls, voice mails, emails, texts, and FB comments I've received. I hear and read them all, hanging on to every word. I thought this was a journey that I would take on my own, I didn't realize you all would take it with me. I feel honored to have your prayers, blessings, love and support with me. I stand here in the mall representing not just my dream but hopefully yours too. I hope from my story you can gain courage to start fulfilling your dreams.
Afternoon:
Did you notice something different today? I haven't posted my times...you know why? Because I've been busy. Yeah baby. This has been my most profitable day. Yes, I'm all smiles and really excited.
Okay, what is it with guys in the mall? There is a guy right now as I'm typing telling me he likes thick women. I'm not thick I told him I just have big bones. :) There is a huge difference you know. Anywho, almost an hour left to go.
Blessed By You,
Boss Momma
I've been blessed by the amount of calls, voice mails, emails, texts, and FB comments I've received. I hear and read them all, hanging on to every word. I thought this was a journey that I would take on my own, I didn't realize you all would take it with me. I feel honored to have your prayers, blessings, love and support with me. I stand here in the mall representing not just my dream but hopefully yours too. I hope from my story you can gain courage to start fulfilling your dreams.
Afternoon:
Did you notice something different today? I haven't posted my times...you know why? Because I've been busy. Yeah baby. This has been my most profitable day. Yes, I'm all smiles and really excited.
Okay, what is it with guys in the mall? There is a guy right now as I'm typing telling me he likes thick women. I'm not thick I told him I just have big bones. :) There is a huge difference you know. Anywho, almost an hour left to go.
Blessed By You,
Boss Momma
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Day 8 in the mall
Morning:
I'm here! Running a little late today. There was no school today so Brownie and Big O were at home when I left. I miss my time with her. She is growing up and finds hanging with her friends more exciting than hanging with her family.
Since there is no school today there is a lot more mall action today. A guy just stopped by to ask if I would put, The World's Greatest Lover on the front of his shirt and Sexy Chocolate on the back. I looked into his eyes to see if he's serious or joking, his eyes give me back an unrecognizable look. I don't wanna go there, and as much as I wanna say HE** No, I tell him yeah I'd put it on there, here's the price. He's says he's off to get a shirt he'll be back. UGH.
Well, it's 1:40 PM and sexy chocolate hasn't shown back up. There are lots of people here, but no sells as of yet. I get a lot of lookers that say, that's a really cute idea or that would make a great gift. Errr... but with a smile. :)
3:22 pm and still no sells today. I had to eat lunch so I'm in the red. I found this quote that seems to fit me. "Ambition is an uncomfortable companion many times. He creates a discontent with present surroundings and achievements; he is never satisfied but always pressing forward to better things in the future. Restless, energetic, purposeful, it is ambition that makes of the creature a real man."- Lyndon B. Johnson That my dear friends is exactly how I feel.
4:50 pm Okay, the day is looking up for me. I have an 18 shirt order. Whoo Hoo! Gotta get started. No longer in the red for today, YEAH!!!! Can you feel my excitement.
8:45 I'm ready to close. A total of 19 orders today. Not bad. Lord, you say trust you and I thought I did, but for some reason this time seems harder than normal.---Sexual Chocolate showed back up this time with friends. He didn't get his shirt so I'm assuming no sale. That's one sale that I'm willing to let pass me by. You ever heard that quote, all money ain't good money. Well, in this case all sells ain't good sells.
I'm home and the girls are running, knocking each other down to see their gone all day wanna be Boss Momma. Happy to see them too we give hugs and kisses. This this time no head jerking Bud to greet me. Bud is at church, I forgot it was Wednesday. Brownie is sleep. She's gonna sleep her life away. Big O finally joins the coming home celebration. With a tender kiss and how was your day we made our way to the room. All of us on the bed we tell each other about our day and then walks in head jerking Bud. What's up momma, hey dad. Hey Bud I reply how was church. Good.
I'm able to do a little bit of schooling with them and then off the bed they go. Awe, another day in the life of Boss Momma.
Learning to Trust,
Boss Momma
I'm here! Running a little late today. There was no school today so Brownie and Big O were at home when I left. I miss my time with her. She is growing up and finds hanging with her friends more exciting than hanging with her family.
Since there is no school today there is a lot more mall action today. A guy just stopped by to ask if I would put, The World's Greatest Lover on the front of his shirt and Sexy Chocolate on the back. I looked into his eyes to see if he's serious or joking, his eyes give me back an unrecognizable look. I don't wanna go there, and as much as I wanna say HE** No, I tell him yeah I'd put it on there, here's the price. He's says he's off to get a shirt he'll be back. UGH.
Well, it's 1:40 PM and sexy chocolate hasn't shown back up. There are lots of people here, but no sells as of yet. I get a lot of lookers that say, that's a really cute idea or that would make a great gift. Errr... but with a smile. :)
3:22 pm and still no sells today. I had to eat lunch so I'm in the red. I found this quote that seems to fit me. "Ambition is an uncomfortable companion many times. He creates a discontent with present surroundings and achievements; he is never satisfied but always pressing forward to better things in the future. Restless, energetic, purposeful, it is ambition that makes of the creature a real man."- Lyndon B. Johnson That my dear friends is exactly how I feel.
4:50 pm Okay, the day is looking up for me. I have an 18 shirt order. Whoo Hoo! Gotta get started. No longer in the red for today, YEAH!!!! Can you feel my excitement.
8:45 I'm ready to close. A total of 19 orders today. Not bad. Lord, you say trust you and I thought I did, but for some reason this time seems harder than normal.---Sexual Chocolate showed back up this time with friends. He didn't get his shirt so I'm assuming no sale. That's one sale that I'm willing to let pass me by. You ever heard that quote, all money ain't good money. Well, in this case all sells ain't good sells.
I'm home and the girls are running, knocking each other down to see their gone all day wanna be Boss Momma. Happy to see them too we give hugs and kisses. This this time no head jerking Bud to greet me. Bud is at church, I forgot it was Wednesday. Brownie is sleep. She's gonna sleep her life away. Big O finally joins the coming home celebration. With a tender kiss and how was your day we made our way to the room. All of us on the bed we tell each other about our day and then walks in head jerking Bud. What's up momma, hey dad. Hey Bud I reply how was church. Good.
I'm able to do a little bit of schooling with them and then off the bed they go. Awe, another day in the life of Boss Momma.
Learning to Trust,
Boss Momma
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Day 7 in the mall
Morning:
I'm working on the fact that business is slow and will be slow until December. Kelly is sure to remind me of this every conversation we have. Her words consistantly ringing in my ears throughout the day gives me comfort to hold on. But for some reason I can't help but to think God is also trying to teach me something in this. I wanna be able to do this with no help. I want to depend on me and Big O, and the fact the others are helping me just...well, I'm not comfortable with it. Don't get me wrong it's not that I don't like help, I don't like NEEDING help. That's a huge difference.
I was telling Big O last night that not having a car makes me feel like a kid that has to ask permission where ever I go. I hate it! I think he really feels badly about it all. In my quest to to fulfill a dream, I've sacrificed our car. We kinda knew something was going on with the car before it happened, and because we were trying to get into the mall decided to use the money for the mall instead of the car. I'm feeling really guilty because instead of getting into this mall, I should've just taken care of the car. I did all the convincing that we would make enough money being in the mall to purchase another car if need be. Hummm, now I'm thinking how selfish of me. The entire family has to sacrifice for a dream that I want.
When does wanting to fulfill a passion in you become selfish? At what point do you stop it? Leaving the house this morning Lia Pooh locked all the doors, and hid my purse she said she didn't want me to leave today. She thought if she locked the doors I could call the mall and tell them that I couldn't leave my house because I was locked in. Her pleading with me this morning tore at every heart string I had. I looked her in the eye and said Lia Pooh this is only for a short time, I'm working to help the family...her reply was we don't need your help. Lol, bless her heart all she wants is her mommy, this boss stuff is running her crazy.
Afternoon:
No sales as of yet. The time is going in super slow speed and all I can do is look at all the faces around me. I wonder what are they thinking? What makes some people stop and what makes others just keep walking. December hurry up please!
Evening:
Still no sales. I talked to Kelly again this evening. She had great words of wisdom. I listened closely hanging on to every word. She's read my blog and wonders why I wasn't this upfront with her. To be honest I'm not an open person. I find it more comforting to type on a screen then to talk to a person. For some reason I also feel so judged by people and the less you give them the less they have to judge you by. Another sign of selfishness huh.
11 hours have come and gone. I don't know anybody that would work 11 hours and not get paid. Well, except me. I must be outta my mind. Today is a week since I've opened and I've worked a total of 72 hours making less then $2.00 an hour. Ugh!
My ride is here waiting on me this time. Nice! I'm home within 10 minutes of closing down my kiosk. I yell upstairs letting the kids know that I'm home. Boom, bang, boom here they come running and jumping down stairs, all in an effort to see their momma. Awe, the joys of motherhood. They help me forget about the long day at the mall and the stress of not bring home any money. They hug and kiss me squeezing really hard, Bud comes downs and jerks his head up and says what's up momma. I give him a head jerk back and say what's up BUD? We smile and start telling stories about our day. We do a little school work and off to bed they go. Brownie, went on a college fair trip with her DECA class she won't be home til after 11:00. I try to wait up but can't.
Confused Dreamer
Boss Momma
I'm working on the fact that business is slow and will be slow until December. Kelly is sure to remind me of this every conversation we have. Her words consistantly ringing in my ears throughout the day gives me comfort to hold on. But for some reason I can't help but to think God is also trying to teach me something in this. I wanna be able to do this with no help. I want to depend on me and Big O, and the fact the others are helping me just...well, I'm not comfortable with it. Don't get me wrong it's not that I don't like help, I don't like NEEDING help. That's a huge difference.
I was telling Big O last night that not having a car makes me feel like a kid that has to ask permission where ever I go. I hate it! I think he really feels badly about it all. In my quest to to fulfill a dream, I've sacrificed our car. We kinda knew something was going on with the car before it happened, and because we were trying to get into the mall decided to use the money for the mall instead of the car. I'm feeling really guilty because instead of getting into this mall, I should've just taken care of the car. I did all the convincing that we would make enough money being in the mall to purchase another car if need be. Hummm, now I'm thinking how selfish of me. The entire family has to sacrifice for a dream that I want.
When does wanting to fulfill a passion in you become selfish? At what point do you stop it? Leaving the house this morning Lia Pooh locked all the doors, and hid my purse she said she didn't want me to leave today. She thought if she locked the doors I could call the mall and tell them that I couldn't leave my house because I was locked in. Her pleading with me this morning tore at every heart string I had. I looked her in the eye and said Lia Pooh this is only for a short time, I'm working to help the family...her reply was we don't need your help. Lol, bless her heart all she wants is her mommy, this boss stuff is running her crazy.
Afternoon:
No sales as of yet. The time is going in super slow speed and all I can do is look at all the faces around me. I wonder what are they thinking? What makes some people stop and what makes others just keep walking. December hurry up please!
Evening:
Still no sales. I talked to Kelly again this evening. She had great words of wisdom. I listened closely hanging on to every word. She's read my blog and wonders why I wasn't this upfront with her. To be honest I'm not an open person. I find it more comforting to type on a screen then to talk to a person. For some reason I also feel so judged by people and the less you give them the less they have to judge you by. Another sign of selfishness huh.
11 hours have come and gone. I don't know anybody that would work 11 hours and not get paid. Well, except me. I must be outta my mind. Today is a week since I've opened and I've worked a total of 72 hours making less then $2.00 an hour. Ugh!
My ride is here waiting on me this time. Nice! I'm home within 10 minutes of closing down my kiosk. I yell upstairs letting the kids know that I'm home. Boom, bang, boom here they come running and jumping down stairs, all in an effort to see their momma. Awe, the joys of motherhood. They help me forget about the long day at the mall and the stress of not bring home any money. They hug and kiss me squeezing really hard, Bud comes downs and jerks his head up and says what's up momma. I give him a head jerk back and say what's up BUD? We smile and start telling stories about our day. We do a little school work and off to bed they go. Brownie, went on a college fair trip with her DECA class she won't be home til after 11:00. I try to wait up but can't.
Confused Dreamer
Boss Momma
Monday, November 9, 2009
Day 6 in the mall
Morning:
Today, is my Brownie's birthday. I got off at 4:30 this morning. I tried to stay up to tell her happy birthday before she left, but that didn't happen.
Got up around 9:00 fixed breakfast for the kids threw a load in the washer and hopped myself in the shower.
Laptop bag check, purse check, cell phone check, oh, I forgot my sweater wrap. Got it. On my my way to the mall to put in my 11 hours. As promised my husband had someone pick me up. Riding to work I wanted to cry. I wanted to be the first to tell Brownie happy birthday. I love making their day special. My heart is sinking with guilt, I promise, I will make this up to her!
Afternoon:
Only one item sold today, but I'm cool with that. I really don't know how to answer people when they say how are things going. Hummm, should I say not well, well but could be better, or it's going? Should I speak christiany? Speaking those things that aren't as though they were. I give up don't know what to say.
This was my prayer to God this morning. Remember when I was going through that really tough part of my life, and you told me If I trusted you that I would not be disappointed. Well, I'm a need something like that right now. I'm gonna to put ALL my faith in you and I'm gonna trust that you will work this out for our family. I thought this was going to be a business walk, not a spiritual walk. Boy, was I wrong.
The day flew by. I only had 3 1/2 hours sleep last night and had to be up all day so it took all that I had to stay up today.
I started purchasing Christmas gifts earlier this year, so Mz. Chocolate called and ask if she could give Brownie one of the gifts I'd purchased earlier. Great idea Mz. Chocolate sure you can I told her. See, I'm telling you she is thoughtful! The little girls wrapped the gift and gave it to Brownie as her birthday gift. She was thrilled.
I get home and Brownie is gone. She has went to dinner with her "Friend" ugh. I stay up until she gets home. She's here and with a big hug I finally wish her happy 16th birthday. This is horrible 10:00 pm and I'm just now wishing her a happy birthday. She was excited her "Friend" had gotten her a cute jacket, and a necklace. I have to process that one...Anyway, she said nothing about not getting anything or not being able to celebrate her birthday. She just smiled and said she had a really good day. She looked so pretty, she had her make-up on and her hair down. It's a beauty that makes your heart smile.
Her smiling, made me feel good. Her lack of attention she gave to the obvious was overwhelming. She smiled as she told us about her well, I guess I could say it...date. That word was really hard to get out. My little Brownie is growing up.
Another night spend talking laughing and socializing on my bed. That seems to be the nightly trend now. I like it and I wouldn't wanna change a thing.
Wishing you a sweet 16 Brownie,
Boss Momma
Today, is my Brownie's birthday. I got off at 4:30 this morning. I tried to stay up to tell her happy birthday before she left, but that didn't happen.
Got up around 9:00 fixed breakfast for the kids threw a load in the washer and hopped myself in the shower.
Laptop bag check, purse check, cell phone check, oh, I forgot my sweater wrap. Got it. On my my way to the mall to put in my 11 hours. As promised my husband had someone pick me up. Riding to work I wanted to cry. I wanted to be the first to tell Brownie happy birthday. I love making their day special. My heart is sinking with guilt, I promise, I will make this up to her!
Afternoon:
Only one item sold today, but I'm cool with that. I really don't know how to answer people when they say how are things going. Hummm, should I say not well, well but could be better, or it's going? Should I speak christiany? Speaking those things that aren't as though they were. I give up don't know what to say.
This was my prayer to God this morning. Remember when I was going through that really tough part of my life, and you told me If I trusted you that I would not be disappointed. Well, I'm a need something like that right now. I'm gonna to put ALL my faith in you and I'm gonna trust that you will work this out for our family. I thought this was going to be a business walk, not a spiritual walk. Boy, was I wrong.
The day flew by. I only had 3 1/2 hours sleep last night and had to be up all day so it took all that I had to stay up today.
I started purchasing Christmas gifts earlier this year, so Mz. Chocolate called and ask if she could give Brownie one of the gifts I'd purchased earlier. Great idea Mz. Chocolate sure you can I told her. See, I'm telling you she is thoughtful! The little girls wrapped the gift and gave it to Brownie as her birthday gift. She was thrilled.
I get home and Brownie is gone. She has went to dinner with her "Friend" ugh. I stay up until she gets home. She's here and with a big hug I finally wish her happy 16th birthday. This is horrible 10:00 pm and I'm just now wishing her a happy birthday. She was excited her "Friend" had gotten her a cute jacket, and a necklace. I have to process that one...Anyway, she said nothing about not getting anything or not being able to celebrate her birthday. She just smiled and said she had a really good day. She looked so pretty, she had her make-up on and her hair down. It's a beauty that makes your heart smile.
Her smiling, made me feel good. Her lack of attention she gave to the obvious was overwhelming. She smiled as she told us about her well, I guess I could say it...date. That word was really hard to get out. My little Brownie is growing up.
Another night spend talking laughing and socializing on my bed. That seems to be the nightly trend now. I like it and I wouldn't wanna change a thing.
Wishing you a sweet 16 Brownie,
Boss Momma
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Day 5 in the mall
Morning:
I'm feeling much better today. Didn't have to be at the mall until 12:00 pm thank God. Don't think I could have come in any earlier. Big O and I had a long talk, I had to apologize about the foolishness yesterday. Not having a car is overwhelming but he assured me that we'd get through this and that he would handle this transportation thing. Okay, I said with an unassured voice, but feeling better that he even said it.
God, what is it? What are you trying to teach me in this? What do you want me to learn?
I did Mz. Chocolates hair and made sure she was appropriately dressed for church. She now dresses herself for church so I do a once over and send them on. Bud, Tammy, and Bud's friend walked to church again this Sunday. Lia Pooh cried because she wanted to go too, I didn't think she could walk that far so I told her she could hang with mommy today. You should have seen the look on her face...she ran around the house trying to find something sparkling to put on. I wear my rhinestone t-shirts to the mall everyday so she wanted to wear one too. She didn't have any so we decided to make her one once we got to the mall.
Afternoon;
I'm so glad the mall is only open for 6 hours today, because my fool self has to work tonight. Oh, let me let you in on another secret...I have another job. I schedule myself when I wanna work so it's not that bad. The only thing is I scheduled myself to work Sunday night. What the heck was I thinking?
I've only had one sell today and it's okay. Kelly's words keep ringing in my ear, it's gonna be slow in November. Lia Pooh helped me spend the money from the one sell I made today. She needed to eat, play and get a snack while she was here. She wanted me to look at clothes, and see these dolls at the Disney Store that I had no money for. I ask the neighbor lady to keep an eye on my space so that I could get a little mommy time in. It was fun, I don't think I've ever walked in a mall with my Lia Pooh holding hands, laughing, and skipping like we were the only two people in the mall. It made me feel like mommy again, squeezing out all the worries over the last few days. It's amazing what being with your kids can do for you if you just let them.
Evening:
Finally at home, Mz. Chocolate wanting to know the details of the day. I fill her, Bud, and Big O in on the details, and they repay me with the same. Off to sleep for me, I have to go to work in three hours. Brownie, where is Brownie? I need to talk to her. A deep since of sadness falls on me. I realize tomorrow is her 16th birthday and we have nothing for her. Awe man, I won't even see her tomorrow I will be at the mall until 9ish when I get home they are usually on their way to bed.
I talk to Brownie assuring her that we will celebrate her birthday just not tomorrow. She smiles and says well, would you mind if my "Friend" takes me to dinner. You know what, I need to process this...This is what I tell my kids when I need to buy some time. Yikes, I don't want her to go, but is that selfish? I don't know how to tell if what I'm feeling is right or wrong. I don't have anything planned and i don't want her having a good time with him and we haven't done anything. Big O says let her go...so with that I'm off to sleep.
3rd shift working Momma,
Boss Momma?
I'm feeling much better today. Didn't have to be at the mall until 12:00 pm thank God. Don't think I could have come in any earlier. Big O and I had a long talk, I had to apologize about the foolishness yesterday. Not having a car is overwhelming but he assured me that we'd get through this and that he would handle this transportation thing. Okay, I said with an unassured voice, but feeling better that he even said it.
God, what is it? What are you trying to teach me in this? What do you want me to learn?
I did Mz. Chocolates hair and made sure she was appropriately dressed for church. She now dresses herself for church so I do a once over and send them on. Bud, Tammy, and Bud's friend walked to church again this Sunday. Lia Pooh cried because she wanted to go too, I didn't think she could walk that far so I told her she could hang with mommy today. You should have seen the look on her face...she ran around the house trying to find something sparkling to put on. I wear my rhinestone t-shirts to the mall everyday so she wanted to wear one too. She didn't have any so we decided to make her one once we got to the mall.
Afternoon;
I'm so glad the mall is only open for 6 hours today, because my fool self has to work tonight. Oh, let me let you in on another secret...I have another job. I schedule myself when I wanna work so it's not that bad. The only thing is I scheduled myself to work Sunday night. What the heck was I thinking?
I've only had one sell today and it's okay. Kelly's words keep ringing in my ear, it's gonna be slow in November. Lia Pooh helped me spend the money from the one sell I made today. She needed to eat, play and get a snack while she was here. She wanted me to look at clothes, and see these dolls at the Disney Store that I had no money for. I ask the neighbor lady to keep an eye on my space so that I could get a little mommy time in. It was fun, I don't think I've ever walked in a mall with my Lia Pooh holding hands, laughing, and skipping like we were the only two people in the mall. It made me feel like mommy again, squeezing out all the worries over the last few days. It's amazing what being with your kids can do for you if you just let them.
Evening:
Finally at home, Mz. Chocolate wanting to know the details of the day. I fill her, Bud, and Big O in on the details, and they repay me with the same. Off to sleep for me, I have to go to work in three hours. Brownie, where is Brownie? I need to talk to her. A deep since of sadness falls on me. I realize tomorrow is her 16th birthday and we have nothing for her. Awe man, I won't even see her tomorrow I will be at the mall until 9ish when I get home they are usually on their way to bed.
I talk to Brownie assuring her that we will celebrate her birthday just not tomorrow. She smiles and says well, would you mind if my "Friend" takes me to dinner. You know what, I need to process this...This is what I tell my kids when I need to buy some time. Yikes, I don't want her to go, but is that selfish? I don't know how to tell if what I'm feeling is right or wrong. I don't have anything planned and i don't want her having a good time with him and we haven't done anything. Big O says let her go...so with that I'm off to sleep.
3rd shift working Momma,
Boss Momma?
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Day 4 in the mall
A new day is before me, I will have high hopes of what this Saturday will bring. It's early and there are lots of people in the mall. Should be a great day.
- Okay, it's now noon and no sales. I'm freaking out.
- One o'clock and now I'm under complete attack...I've finally sold 1 thing and that's not good. I have got to get Kelly on the phone to help calm my nerves. Sending Kelly a text saying getting discouraged only sold one item today. She text back it will come. IT WILL COME!!! That's not what I want to hear. Kelly, I need some words of comfort here...please give me something more than that! I sent her a message back saying should have sold ornaments. To that she replies, day is not over. DAY IS NOT OVER. It's two o'clock and hundreds of people in the mall and I've only sold one item, the day is almost over!
- It's now three o'clock and my ride text me to let me know she can't come get me she has a headache. You know what I want to say don't you....I'm so done! Hummm, and I wanna be BOSS MOMMA. I'm changing my title to broke down wanna be boss momma.
- Okay it's now five o'clock and a few more sales have trickled in...not many. I made more during the week then I made on this packed Saturday. OMG, what have I done. I wanna quit, I wanna pack my stuff and leave the mall now! If it wasn't for all these people in here I would be bawling underneath this table. I'm in complete panic mode and don't know how to get myself together. My cell is ringing like crazy and I don't wanna talk to anybody, not even Big O, I'm mad, sad, and disappointed. Kelly did say it would be slow, but this is beyond slow.
My mall neighbor come over and we talked. I found out that they are christians, they were very encouraging. The lady ask if she could bless my business and I said yes of course. Is this God trying to build faith in me? Ugh, God why help me build faith now? You are God just give me faith and lets me move on.
As the night progressed I started thinking how can I push this helpless feeling inside of me out. I decided to list product on my website and eBay. I began to feel a little better when I started listing stuff. I felt like I was doing something instead of just sitting here.
I finally started thinking a bit more reasonable. I've been open 4 days and I'm upset and ready to close because sales aren't where I think they should be. It takes some businesses years to make money. This shows me I have a lot to learn. I'm all over the place emotionally and need to really get a grip.
It's closing time and Big O picked me up and yes I lit into him. I was still a little upset, well a lot upset because of today and I he knew it. He didn't say too much, just babe it's gonna be okay, I know your feeling down because you haven't done what you thought you should but it's okay.
I couldn't even bare talking to the kiddos so I gave kisses and hugs and said goodnight. I was up all night tossing and turning.
Sleepless in Cordova,
Boss Momma
Friday, November 6, 2009
Day 3 at the mall
Morning:
This morning started at 7:00 am. I woke up and finally cleaned the mess I made in the living room. I set up my mall display in there, so it was a mess. While cleaning I was able to cook dinner and get some laundry done. It feels like a full work day and I haven't even started yet.
It's really slow this morning. I'm thinking this is Friday and there should be a lot more people at the mall. This waiting game is really kicking my butt.
Afternoon:
Still no sales today. I'm getting worried. Time is just ticking by. Tick, tock, tick, tock...
Evening:
I'm scared. No sales and it's almost closing time. Okay, Kelly said it would be like this. I'm trying not to panic here. 11 hours in a mall with no sales, this is making me worry, worry a lot.
Finally home and it hurt to have to come and tell the kids and Big O that we had no sales today. They looked at me and said well, there's always tomorrow. Oh, how I love my family. Lia Pooh rubbed my back and said it's okay mommy I will pray that God will give you customers tomorrow. I smiled and said thank you. Mz. Chocolate just smiled and said do you want me to scratch your head? I love for people to play in my hair, for some reason it relaxes me. So I told them about my day as Mz. Chocolate played with my hair. Brownie says this is the reason she doesn't want to have her own business. She says she needs a pay check regularly. We laughed told a few jokes and off to bed we all went.
Big O looked at me and said it's okay, it's gonna work just give it some time. Those words comforted me through the night.
Worried in Cordova,
Boss Momma
This morning started at 7:00 am. I woke up and finally cleaned the mess I made in the living room. I set up my mall display in there, so it was a mess. While cleaning I was able to cook dinner and get some laundry done. It feels like a full work day and I haven't even started yet.
It's really slow this morning. I'm thinking this is Friday and there should be a lot more people at the mall. This waiting game is really kicking my butt.
Afternoon:
Still no sales today. I'm getting worried. Time is just ticking by. Tick, tock, tick, tock...
Evening:
I'm scared. No sales and it's almost closing time. Okay, Kelly said it would be like this. I'm trying not to panic here. 11 hours in a mall with no sales, this is making me worry, worry a lot.
Finally home and it hurt to have to come and tell the kids and Big O that we had no sales today. They looked at me and said well, there's always tomorrow. Oh, how I love my family. Lia Pooh rubbed my back and said it's okay mommy I will pray that God will give you customers tomorrow. I smiled and said thank you. Mz. Chocolate just smiled and said do you want me to scratch your head? I love for people to play in my hair, for some reason it relaxes me. So I told them about my day as Mz. Chocolate played with my hair. Brownie says this is the reason she doesn't want to have her own business. She says she needs a pay check regularly. We laughed told a few jokes and off to bed we all went.
Big O looked at me and said it's okay, it's gonna work just give it some time. Those words comforted me through the night.
Worried in Cordova,
Boss Momma
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Day 2 at the mall
Morning,
I'm still figuring how I'm gonna get back and forth to the mall. This car issue is really getting old. This morning has been really slow it's going on 11:00 and no sales. Kelly did warn me that in the first few weeks it would be really slow. She told me to purchase only the minimum to get me to Thanksgiving. I'm glad I listened.
Afternoon:
Sales are starting to creep in slowly this afternoon. Santa is due in later today and hopefully more people will show up for that. I know, I know santa this early in the season seems crazy doesn't it. I'm not complaining especially if he's bringing the buying Christmas spirit with him.
Evening:
Another 11 hour day has finally come to a close. I'm tired from all the standing and can't wait to crawl my body into my comfortable bed. But you know before I do that I gotta spend some time with the kids.
Got home and the kids were sitting in my room awaiting my entrance. With shouts of joy the little ones ran and grabbed me for hugs and kisses. Bud, greets me with a what's up mom...and how much did we make today. Didn't know I was gonna have to answer to the family on a daily basis about our progress. How funny is it that your kids are wanting to know what our gross sales were today. I filled them in on all that happened and off to bed we all went.
Big O holds me close and whispers in my ear, I'm so proud of you! Keep up the great work. I don't think he knows how much energy I took from those words.
Feeling hopeful,
Boss Momma
I'm still figuring how I'm gonna get back and forth to the mall. This car issue is really getting old. This morning has been really slow it's going on 11:00 and no sales. Kelly did warn me that in the first few weeks it would be really slow. She told me to purchase only the minimum to get me to Thanksgiving. I'm glad I listened.
Afternoon:
Sales are starting to creep in slowly this afternoon. Santa is due in later today and hopefully more people will show up for that. I know, I know santa this early in the season seems crazy doesn't it. I'm not complaining especially if he's bringing the buying Christmas spirit with him.
Evening:
Another 11 hour day has finally come to a close. I'm tired from all the standing and can't wait to crawl my body into my comfortable bed. But you know before I do that I gotta spend some time with the kids.
Got home and the kids were sitting in my room awaiting my entrance. With shouts of joy the little ones ran and grabbed me for hugs and kisses. Bud, greets me with a what's up mom...and how much did we make today. Didn't know I was gonna have to answer to the family on a daily basis about our progress. How funny is it that your kids are wanting to know what our gross sales were today. I filled them in on all that happened and off to bed we all went.
Big O holds me close and whispers in my ear, I'm so proud of you! Keep up the great work. I don't think he knows how much energy I took from those words.
Feeling hopeful,
Boss Momma
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Opening Day at the Mall
Morning:
I'm standing in the middle of my dream this morning. It feels good to have come this far. I was up until 3:00 am, but I got everything set up and ready. Well, almost everything...this dag on cash register has gotten on my last nerve. I've been trying to set it up for days and can't figure it out. Oh well, I'm not going to let that damper my spirits.
Afternoon:
I had my first customer around 10:30 this morning. She purchased two shirts. Whew Hoo! It's now 5:00 pm and no other sales.
Evening:
It's been a long day. More sales finally! My precious friend Randi J and her daughter just stopped by to show some support and make a purchase. (the one that let me use her car and sent out that email) I had some friends call and send text messages with well wishes. All of which still vibrates loudly in my heart.
I finally get home and the kids are all over me with tons of questions. Did you get a lot of customers, are you gonna fix dinner, can I go with you tomorrow, did you bring us a treat, are you gonna take me to practice... Oh my, I just wanna lay down. Instead I sit on my bed and have all of the kiddos join me. They each tell me about their day and how much they missed me being at home. They wanted to know every customer and every dollar made. So I go over with them how much we made and what each customer wanted. They seem excited about seeing mommy and hearing about all the business stuff too. Kisses and off the bed they go...What a way to end the day.
Dream in motion,
Boss Momma
I'm standing in the middle of my dream this morning. It feels good to have come this far. I was up until 3:00 am, but I got everything set up and ready. Well, almost everything...this dag on cash register has gotten on my last nerve. I've been trying to set it up for days and can't figure it out. Oh well, I'm not going to let that damper my spirits.
Afternoon:
I had my first customer around 10:30 this morning. She purchased two shirts. Whew Hoo! It's now 5:00 pm and no other sales.
Evening:
It's been a long day. More sales finally! My precious friend Randi J and her daughter just stopped by to show some support and make a purchase. (the one that let me use her car and sent out that email) I had some friends call and send text messages with well wishes. All of which still vibrates loudly in my heart.
I finally get home and the kids are all over me with tons of questions. Did you get a lot of customers, are you gonna fix dinner, can I go with you tomorrow, did you bring us a treat, are you gonna take me to practice... Oh my, I just wanna lay down. Instead I sit on my bed and have all of the kiddos join me. They each tell me about their day and how much they missed me being at home. They wanted to know every customer and every dollar made. So I go over with them how much we made and what each customer wanted. They seem excited about seeing mommy and hearing about all the business stuff too. Kisses and off the bed they go...What a way to end the day.
Dream in motion,
Boss Momma
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
One day until opening
Wow, what a day yesterday. I got almost everything done! All I have to do today is return a few things and pick up my sign.
My poor kids they were home all day yesterday. My little Lia Pooh was calling me every hour asking how long are you gonna be. School work has just fallen by the waist side these last few days, I suppose it will be like that a lot over the next two months. Well, summer school here we come. Shhhh, don't tell the kids.
I have the car again today so I will do the few things I have left to do and come home and get started with putting the display completely together, fix dinner, and get ready to set up tonight. At this point I have no idea of the car we will use to haul all of our stuff to the mall, but I figure it would work itself out.
I forgot to mention that yesterday I got an order of 27 rhinestone t-shirts. Wow, you see how God works to provide for his children. I now have enough money to get everything I need to get started. That up all night stuff is for the birds, I knew I should've just trusted that God would work it out.
I've finally finished everything, and just as I thought it would, the car issue has worked itself out and we are now headed to the mall to get set up. I will post pictures of setup.
Preparing to life my dream,
Boss Momma
My poor kids they were home all day yesterday. My little Lia Pooh was calling me every hour asking how long are you gonna be. School work has just fallen by the waist side these last few days, I suppose it will be like that a lot over the next two months. Well, summer school here we come. Shhhh, don't tell the kids.
I have the car again today so I will do the few things I have left to do and come home and get started with putting the display completely together, fix dinner, and get ready to set up tonight. At this point I have no idea of the car we will use to haul all of our stuff to the mall, but I figure it would work itself out.
I forgot to mention that yesterday I got an order of 27 rhinestone t-shirts. Wow, you see how God works to provide for his children. I now have enough money to get everything I need to get started. That up all night stuff is for the birds, I knew I should've just trusted that God would work it out.
I've finally finished everything, and just as I thought it would, the car issue has worked itself out and we are now headed to the mall to get set up. I will post pictures of setup.
Preparing to life my dream,
Boss Momma
Monday, November 2, 2009
Two days before opening
I have never been so excited to drive. My girl Randi J came to pick me up before she went to work. Randi J you will remember was the same friend I mentioned a few days ago that sent out the email about me needing help financially. When she arrived at the house she happily presented me with a nice sum of money. Ummm, do you know how blessed and humbled I felt at that moment. I felt loved, honored, and totally speechless.
Dropping her off I realized that I don't receive well. I love to give and don't know how to receive. At that moment I had no idea what to say. I felt like saying thank you, but for some reason thank you did not seem to express my overwhelming sense of gratitude.
After this emotional ride I just took, I needed to get myself together so that I could get everything I needed and get it ready for opening day. Will post tomorrow how far or not so far I've come.
On the road again,
Boss Momma
Dropping her off I realized that I don't receive well. I love to give and don't know how to receive. At that moment I had no idea what to say. I felt like saying thank you, but for some reason thank you did not seem to express my overwhelming sense of gratitude.
After this emotional ride I just took, I needed to get myself together so that I could get everything I needed and get it ready for opening day. Will post tomorrow how far or not so far I've come.
On the road again,
Boss Momma
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Opening day/ more time
Well, it's no longer opening day it's now two days before opening and I have a list of things still needed to be done.
- Get acrylic frames for examples
- get material from fabric store
- get velcro
- get some type of cord to hold my bags
- get wood from Lowes
- get sticks to stablize the back of the boxes
- get gift bags, mesh, and cash register from Kelly
- get lights for the display
- order t-shirts
- program cash register
- get sign made for kiosk
- find a car
That is a lot to do in a few days with no car. I got a call from a dear friend Randi J offering her car if I needed it. Yes, I need it thank you very much. So, I have a car that I can use Monday and Tuesday. Whew, one less thing on my plate.
We had a few donations come in over night, yeah! Have you ever attended a church and they were begging for money? I got $10.00 all I need is $20.00 more and the rent is paid! Come on saints just give, give and the Lord will bless you press down, shaken together and running over...well, that's how I'm feeling right about now.
My kids bless their hearts didn't wanna miss church today so they got up and walked. Hummm, don't know if I should be happy or sad about that. Not having a car sucks!
Signing out on what should've been opening day.
Boss Momma
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